ring ring what?

Here I am, sitting alone
listening to iTunes
watching the phone
no, shit, where's the phone
well I would be watching it
since I'm alone.
And I feel like there's something that's different
not different
but something happened last night
that I think might be worth
a wink or a blink or a secretive smile
not a waving and leaving.

Can't you stay for a while?

No?

Well. Okay. I guess that's all right
I don't know what I'll do with the rest of the night
I don't want to do lab
That's all I've got to do
I'll just sit here and freeze
and damnit miss you
and other opportunities that might come in this while
since my smart sharp decision
to stack chips in one pile
and no other.

Tch.

Vagina Monologues was swell. Here's me being prideful again, me taking credit for things that aren't really mine that were collective in effort. Needing the praise, I suppose, as a validation. Of what? Maybe that's something I ought to think about. Personal note.

Where's the phone?