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Freaking Out
11 May 2010 19:25It always comes as a surprise to me exactly how poorly I respond to too much going on around me. Too many things that I need to have an input on, or that I need to respond to. I'm pretty sure it wasn't always like this.
Now it just makes me need to do something bad or drastic to myself so that I could end up in the hospital and maybe being left alone except for doctors who mostly care whether or not I get better, not about the costuming I have left to do, or how I'm going to budget the fabric I have left or how I'm going to make all the trains I need to this next week.
I feel like I'm much more fragile than I used to be. Something about re-breaking fault lines or something maybe?
I don't know.
I think I need to go back to therapy.
Now it just makes me need to do something bad or drastic to myself so that I could end up in the hospital and maybe being left alone except for doctors who mostly care whether or not I get better, not about the costuming I have left to do, or how I'm going to budget the fabric I have left or how I'm going to make all the trains I need to this next week.
I feel like I'm much more fragile than I used to be. Something about re-breaking fault lines or something maybe?
I don't know.
I think I need to go back to therapy.
